Embarking on a New Journey: Positive Intelligence
I have embarked on a new program with the wonderful women from my Restart group.
I am investing my time and energy into this program in order to….
I am at a loss for words.
Why am i participating in this program?
I see how I have sabotaged myself in pursuing what matters most to me.
I see how negative mindset and old patterns stop me from moving forward.
I made connections with 5 amazing women and want to strengthen the relationships and have an avenue for support.
I believe in gathering as many tools as I can to help me navigate my journey.
Life has thrown a lot of sh… challenges my way and it is time for me to fully step into my divine and take back my power!
The concepts in the Positive Intelligence Program are familiar to me.
We have saboteurs that were developed in childhood to help us survive.
Yet, they are no longer needed in our adult lives and we need to first identify the aspects of these old coping strategies that no longer serve us.
Shirzad Chamine, the author of the book and creator of the program, labels our lead saboteur as our Judge.
We judge ourselves and we judge others. There are 10 additional saboteurs and he provides an assessment to determine what other factors are at play.
I have learned that the Victim, Pleaser and Avoider are next after my Judge Saboteur.
He says there is one main saboteur after the lead Judge.
When I took the assessment, the scores for all three were equal.
What does all of this mean?
It means I am recognizing the factors that are having a negative impact on my life. I am learning new skills to shift my brain away from victim, avoider, and pleaser consciousness and into my sage, as Shirzad labels our higher self, our inner wisdom.
Participating in a program like this with other people helps me to be accountable.
We set goals and check in with each other daily. Yet, it is far more than a goal setting program.
Depression has reared its ugly head in my life once again.
I see how my Avoider stops me from taking action and my Victim leaves me feeling hopeless and defeated. Yet, I find myself trying to seek reassurance and approval from others, my Pleaser saboteur.
I listen to the lyrics of Soul Asylum, Runaway Train, and feel the depths of my depression.
I hear A Great Big World tell me, “You’ll Be Okay”
You’ll be okay
You’ll be okay
The sun will rise
To better daysAnd change will come
It’s on it’s way
Just close your eyes
And let it rain
A Great Big World
And my all time favorite song reminds me to take back my power
Well, I won’t back down
No I won’t back down
You could stand me up at the gates of Hell
But I won’t back downNo I’ll stand my ground
Tom Petty
Won’t be turned around
And I’ll keep this world from draggin’ me down
Gonna stand my ground
And I won’t back down