I woke up at 2am and made the mistake of looking at Facebook. A Facebook “friend” had shared a video of a Pediatrician speaking out agains transgender youth, speaking out about the dangers of medications and procedures for transgender children. From her video spewed mountains of hate for LGBTQ individuals and references to the Bible and God and Jesus and a debate on gender and sex.
First, I made comments back on the post and to the people spreading hate and ignorance.
I took my frustration and decide to write a blog.
My blog turned into a blog about all I have learned from my children.
Love is stronger than hate
The opposite of love is fear
People are afraid of what they don’t understand.
Come from a place of love
This is my goal in my writing, to come from a place of love.
So now I have been awake for 4 hours?
Has that much time really gone by?
I am not sure what time i sat down to write, must have been by 3am.
It is now 6:28.
How I spend my time.
I wrote one blog in 3 and a half hours
And spent much time reading other posts on Facebook.
How I spend my time…
I am now paying attention to how I spend my time
The first step in changing my actions is to pay attention to what I am doing
And ask, Why?
Or maybe more poignantly, what purpose has it served for me?
Today, I have learned that I can read something I completely disagree with and from that create a post of love. That I can pull inspiration from unusual places.
And what I write about might not be a response to what I have read.
I have also learned that I can choose how I spend my time.
I have learned that I have been craving quiet time alone
Time alone in my own thoughts
That is renews me to have time to reflect, to listen to inspiring music and read social media and then turn to writing.
We all can be influenced by persuasion even in the absence of facts and science.
Facebook and social media is full of so much misinformation and it is a source of real information, truth and honest news.
Like life, it is a dichotomy.
Now it is 6:30am and my alarm goes off telling me to get up for work.
I am now ready for a nap.
Yet, I will get ready for work.
Inside their is a struggle of resistance, wanting to spend my day writing and reflecting rather than entering the world of geriatric healthcare for the day.
Yet, I know I can choose how I spend my time.
I can choose to make time to write and reflect and have quiet alone time.
I can and need to make these choices actively no matter what is happening with my family and what time my children wake up.
I can get ready for work and go to work now and nap later.
I can take this idea with me today and remember that I am more than my job working in healthcare as an Occupational Therapist.
I can create time for writing and pursuing parenting coaching business just as I make time to go out of the home and work to bring home income for my family.
Everything is temporary.
I can earn an income in more than the traditional way of working at a job.
I can have faith.
I can live in this world and not be of it
I can work at a a job and pursue a passion and and pursue earning a living from a business.
I can transition my time slowly or however it unfolds…
I can embrace the change.