I woke up today on a Sunday morning and had the idea to take a walk. I looked at my weather app, 64 degrees.
It is July in Charlotte, NC and we don’t usually see 64 degrees even at 8am.
I got dressed and grabbed my headphones and found resurrection Sunday on iheart radio and off I went.
Now I am perched on the trampoline with a pillow and some towels with my iPad and keyboard in the quiet.
“Mom, mom, there is something I have to tell you. Do you like pears?”
My 9 year old comes bouncing on the trampoline to tell me pears are growing on the pear tree in the front yard.
I explain that it is a pear tree and has had pears on it before but they usually don’t taste good.
He is very excited. I am less than thrilled that my quiet has been invaded.
I try to smile and acknowledge his excitement in the discovery.
And off he goes… on to his next adventure.
The WiFi goes in and out on my iPad and I have to enter settings several times to reset it.
There is an amazing breeze blowing trees that surround me in my backyard sanctuary.
The sky is Carolina blue
The humidity is low
The air is cool
It’s a beautiful day, like an early spring day here in NC
Amazingly, I am home from work on this beautiful Sunday.
If only Bluetooth and WiFi would work continuously so I don’t have to keep going into settings to fix them…
I am in the quiet right now, no music, no children….
Well, to be fair, I texted him first about my personal hot spot not working.
So now. my oldest is texting me about things before he goes to work
I don’t mind.
Motherhood is my first priority.
Now it is quiet.
cicadas? Or something like that chirps
Crows fly overhead cawing
Neighbors dog barks
Wind blows the tall trees
And the leave rustle
A siren in the distance
Not a peaceful sound…
Or it can be, knowing someone is getting the help they need
But it brings knots to my stomach
I release the stress of the siren sounds…
The sun shines down on my back creating a glare on my screen
Showing all the dirt and smudge marks on my iPad screen
The temperature is perfect
A loud banging noise..
From my house?
No, not my house
The sound of cars…. and an airplane
The leaves rustling in the wind is my favorite sound
I could curl up and take a nap
I have been sleeping a lot lately
I figured my body needed rest
I seam to sleep a lot and still feel tired
Shiloh, my beagle, comes running through the back yard, sniffing the ground
I don’t think he realizes I am here
Until I call his name and he freezes, tail perked
And then runs over and lifts his nose onto the outer edge of the trampoline to discover it is me
And off he goes again, running through the yard
I realize this is the reason I put music on to write
Music helps me focus
Today my husband was going to take 2 of our kids to Raleigh for the kids camp my sister runs for kids and dogs.
The plans changed so they are leaving tomorrow now.
I was looking forward to having a Sunday at home by myself.
I will have the next two days home, yet I also will be going into work both days.
Then Wednesday, I drive to Raleigh to do a parental swap.
I have right now, here outside in this beautiful weather, sitting on my trampoline.
I lay back and look up to see a hawk flying overhead with the moon in the bakyround
Then another hawk appears
I watch them soar, floating through the air
And then they are gone…
Life moves quickly until we stop and sit still for a moment
My pets know this, the dogs and our cat
Shiloh, the beagle, is sitting still and staring at a fence right now
A wooden fence
There are vines growing on our metal fence and our neighbor’s wooden fence sits against the metal fence
Shiloh sits still, turning his head from side to side on occasion as if to be looking up and down the fence
I call his name and he turns to look at me and then resumes his watch
If only I could enter his mind for a moment
8% battery on my iPad and my keyboard battery must be running low too
It is so peaceful out here and yet my battery will be dead soon and nature calls…
I know I can come back out here and yet, somehow I know once I go in, I won’t come back to this peaceful place on the trampoline to listen, to think, and to write
I need to make meatballs today for my husband to take for a meal on the trip
For now, I sit and watch the leaves move in the wind
I take this moment to be still and peaceful