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Posts tagged ‘Music inspiration songs’

Gratitude: Embracing Bipolar Depression

Well, if you want to sing out, sing out

And if you want to be free, be free

‘Cause there’s a million things to be

You know that there are

And if you want to live high, live high

And if you want to live low, live low

‘Cause there’s a million ways to go

You know that there are

Cat Stevens sings as I sit here telling myself to write

Ups and downs, highs and lows

Bipolar depression and mood swings

Life challenges

Leaving me wanting to escape it all, at times

Other times ready to jump in and fight, power on…

Emotions

Feelings

Memories

Regrets…

Life for 48 and a half years and counting…

Opportunities come and gone

New endeavors

Staring new jobs, new people, new places, new computer systems…

Old jobs and people I have known a long time

Letting go

Moving on

Writing

Because I have to

Because it is what feeds my soul

Because when I don’t write,

I feel lost

Something is missing

Until I return to my keyboard

And figure out what to say

My life is awesome

Sometimes my life sucks

Circumstances and situations suck

Infuriated by government systems

Lack of organization and logic

Waiting

Mental health services

Sick care

Thinking of those things is a whole ‘ nother blog

Embracing myself and who I am

Embracing where I am

Right now

Right here

In this home

My 5 year home that I have lived in for 17 years…

With all its cracks and crevices and needed repairs

My house is nearly 49 years old, as am I

Built the year I was born

A good year

1969

I was born on Peace Day during the Vietnam war

October 15

I believe I choose to be born on that day

I was born 3 weeks past my mother’s “due date”

They allowed that back then…

Here I am

Now

Journey sings to me

Don’t’ stop believin’

Dreams

Writing

Aspirations

Hope

New endeavors with Don

Speaking

Speaking!

Writing and speaking my truth

My true self is emerging

i sing this song to my true self…

I know you’re out there somewhere

Somewhere, somewhere

I know I’ll find you somehow

Somehow, somehow

And somehow I’ll return again to you

The mist is lifting slowly

I can see the way ahead

And I’ve left behind the empty streets

That once inspired my life

And the strength of the emotion

Is like thunder in the air

‘Cos the promise that we made each other

Haunts me to the end

I know you’re out there somewhere

Somewhere, somewhere

I know you’re out there somewhere

Somewhere you can hear my voice

I know I’ll find you somehow

Somehow, somehow

I know I’ll find you somehow

And somehow I’ll return again to you

The secret of your beauty

And the mystery of your soul

I’ve been searching for in everyone I meet

And the times I’ve been mistaken

It’s impossible to say

And the grass is growing

Underneath our feet

I know you’re out there somewhere

Somewhere, somewhere

I know you’re out there somewhere

Somewhere you can hear my voice

I know I’ll find you somehow

Somehow, somehow

I know I’ll find you somehow

And somehow I’ll return again to you

[Interlude:]

You see I know you’re out there somewhere

O yes I know you’re out there somewhere

You see I know I’ll find you somehow

O yes I know I’ll find you somehow

the words that I remember

From my childhood still are true

That there’s none so blind

As those who will not see

And to those who lack the courage

And say it’s dangerous to try

Well they just don’t know

That love eternal will not be denied

I know you’re out there somewhere

Somewhere, somewhere

I know you’re out there somewhere

Somewhere you can hear my voice

I know I’ll find you somehow

Somehow, somehow

I know I’ll find you somehow

And somehow I’ll return again to you

Yes I know it’s going to happen

I can feel you getting near

And soon we’ll be returning

To the fountain of our youth

And if you wake up wondering

In the darkness I’ll be there

My arms will close around you

And protect you with the truth

I know you’re out there somewhere

Somewhere, somewhere

I know you’re out there somewhere

Somewhere you can hear my voice

I know I’ll find you somehow

Somehow, somehow

I know I’ll find you somehow

And somehow I’ll return again to you

Thank you Moody Blues and Azlyrics

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500 Words a Day, no editing

This morning, a Friend told me about the Facebook group, My 500 Words.  Write at least 500 words per day for 31 days. Perfect day to begin. January 1,2018.

wow. 2018. Will soon be 2020 which  sounds like a sci-fi show.  Or the other tv show 20/20. Lol

spent so much of 2017 in depression, best way to sum it up is slowly I have pulled myself up from the muck and am beginning to move on. Just saw the word count in the bottom right corner, perfect!

The rules involved “ no editing”so I’m trying to just jump into it and write.  Why not make it a blog and share my internal process and then be able to see my progress.

I am good at being wordy but 500words every day for 31 days sounds like a lot! It’s the every day part that is my challenge. I used to write one per week and did good at that and even met NaNoWriMo novel writing month long challenge several times.  Yet, I have wanted to do the “write every day” thing in order to make it a habit and part of my every day life even when I’m home all day with kids, or work a 9 hour day as an OT, or am driving kids around all over the place.

Inspiration playlist on Spotify with a large variety of music including Johnny Cash, Walk the Moon, and Stevie Wonder.  Music is my inspiration. Most music. Well, the music I am in the mood for at the time.  Usually not Country, unless it’s Randy Travis (love hos deep voice) or Kenny Rodgers or what I call “northern Country”.  And usually not rap except for Run DMC with Aerosmith.   I have even expanded into current music lately thanks to Ellen Degeneres and to my wonderful daughter, Abby.   Most inspiring to me lately is Ed Sheeran’s song, Castle on the Hill, and anything by A Great Big World.

Makes me think of the movie with Adam Sandler, eReign Over Me .    

I shouldn’t even mention Adam Sandler because it is not his usual kind of movie, quite the opposite. He plays a serious role and some really wonderful acting (I love him as a comic actor too) but this is very different and moving.  Bring a box of tissues! If you need a really good cry, this is the movie.  But I also found it inspiring as an example of a way through depression and trauma. …through music (and isolation) but music.  Music is so healing, so powerful.

Just listen to a David Bowie…..

‘Cause love’s such an old-fashioned word
And love dares you to care for
The people on the edge of the night
And love dares you to change our way of
Caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is our last dance
This is ourselves
Under pressure
Under pressure
Pressure

thank you Azlyrics as always you come to my rescue when I can’t quite remember all the words and make it so much easier for me to copy and paste.  Somehow I feel loyal to always use azlyrics.  So far they have never led me astray or failed to provide what I was looking for.

So here is to Day 1! Happy New Year everyone!! Join me in the 500words per day writing challenge. It’s not that hard, you can just ramble for 500 words like I just did! Remember just write, no editing!  Love to hear how it’s going for you or how my words have affected you.

Happy 2018!!!